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Rudy Castillo's avatar

"Retired, huh. So what do you do all day?"

"I, well . . . (Well what do you think I do you pompous little twit. Just because I'm 76 doesn't mean I never did anything and lack skills. I have tons of skills. Didn't I put myself through law school with the help of a lifetime of loans? Didn't I raise my darling child until she was old enough to escape? Didn't I get married, divorced and finally find the love of my life who cooks all the time and I clean up when I can? And trips. Don't even get me started on the trips. Arriverderci pal because I'm going to Scotland as soon as I save up some money, which probably won't happen in the next four years and by that time I'll be 80 but so what, who says you can't ride the rails when your 80, just ask Arlo or his father Woody for godssake, and those are just a few of my dreams, I'm loaded with dreams, I have so many dreams they wake up my nightmares and) . . . every day I get up and make coffee."

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Sarah Hauser's avatar

Here we go again, Sunday morning at the F train stop. Desperate souls draped over the benches, bottles and dirty clothes strewn on the floor. Better keep my eyes open, don’t look at your phone. Be subtle but keep the peripheral vision…

15 minutes til the train, are you kidding me? Not worth walking to Broadway Lafayette to maybe get an earlier express train. Oh well. Gonna text my client, they’ll understand. OK, oh well.

A tall man cursing and yelling and angry coming my way. OK just stand near this family over here and keep my energy small, invisible, I will be ok, I will be ok. Feel my feet on the ground, breathe…. Feel my feet connected to the earth…. OK good, hope he stays at the end of the platform. Still yelling so though, jeez. Wonder what his story is. Sad. Scary.

Hearing a melody for a section of a song I’m working on, got to get that down before it disappears. If I just come over here next to one of the columns I can hum it quietly into my phone, here we go. Nobody cares anyway and I don’t care if they think I’m crazy. Let me do that again, that was too quiet.

Still watching that guy at the end of the platform, he’s coming back my way now again, he’s so angry, damn. Seeing an image I had during my Reiki session with my cats. Sweet Natalia, feeling her paw on me and suddenly feeling a shield of protection because of her energy. What a good girl.

Oh good that breeze means the train is coming. “Stand Clear of the Closing Doors Please!”

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