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The Mediocre Mother's avatar

I was 11 years old, interviewing myself in the bathroom mirror, door locked, settled on top of the counter. The upstairs bathroom, we called it, aptly so. It had a full bathtub and a true laundry chute and a working lock- all draws to any kid in a family of six (kids, that is). Add in the parents, 8 of us, privacy hard to come by. The chute looked like a large wooden milk crate with a latched lid; you could open it and deposit clothes or towels down a large rectangular tube of aluminum into the laundry room below. Other things that went that way-toys, shoes, and my sister’s fingernail collection once when I was so red faced enraged at her and could think of no worse punishment than to spend out what she had carefully saved. There is no replacement for a dumped collection of fingernails in dirty laundry, no dash to the local K-Mart. A year later, I would unravel her knitting, one row at a time, tears pouring down my face as I pulled on the string first one direction, then the other, recommitting to the destruction each time the row came to an end and I moved on to the next one. I can’t remember what it was that she did to me in either instance, only the feeling of being so very angry that I had to do something, and then the shock and power of reacting with irreversible damage. I can’t think of doing it a third time.

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Meggen's avatar

I'm 9 years old and it is a bright sunny day in northeastern Ohio. I am outside on our back patio which was just a slab of concrete, but to me, my siblings, and my cousins it was a space where we could have many adventures. We are all wearing our swimsuits, lying on beach towels, and soaking up as much sun as we can. I am filled with energy, excitement, and happiness because I'm surrounded by family and enjoying the beautiful summer weather.

I feel the warmth of the sun on my skin and it feels like I'm being hugged by the sun. There is music playing and we all begin to dance around. I am carefree in that moment. I am not filled with anxiety or worry, just being fully present in the moment. I truly feel like a child in that moment, as it should be. This moment feels like it will last forever and I don't want it to end. Little do I know at that moment how precious this memory is and how important it is to fully cherish one's childhood.

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